once our voices forged, once our heads collided
to make the whole, but now you use your mouth
use it to break this and vanish
never to know it again
disjointed voices
wiped out
like an ash print in the rain
you vanished
drove the final nail in
you're erased and unfamiliar
you're vanished
alias:
i thought about listening
but couldn't bring myself to it
the blurry-framed pictures of "remember when's"
always roll in my head after the sixth
staring out the open window
waiting for one to burn out
but your path has already been chosen, to fill a void
in and endless emptiness that is the 17 year old white kid
we've all grown i suppose
i dropped one or two x's off the shirt
but can't shake the frayed pant legs
used to think we'd change the world
now i'm just happy to wake up
and drink coffee in my apartment
thought at some point we'd reach
for the same butter at Denny's
but now i'm rambling and
my overbearing obsession with my past is
taking up to much of me
so here i'll be, adding notches to my lost friend count
you too have become a broken abacus
some of them will frequent
Christmas parties of co-workers'
for the rest of their careers and some will still be feeling
uncomfortable and self-conscious
and some will be spinning through all
the what-if's in their head, then again, I could be wrong
but who will have more kids staring,
wearing anarchy T-shirts bought from Spencer's Gifts
and who will get to return to a loved one
with no baggage
guess i'd rather run the course
and die than in your predicament
one last nail punctuates it
you're sealed off
like and ash print in the rain
one last nail
you're sealed off and unfamiliar
never to know it again
disjointed voices
wiped out
like an ash print in the rain
you vanished
drove the final nail in
you're erased and unfamiliar
you're vanished