[Verse 1]
I learned a lot inside a year, that handful of months
Another turn around the sun, I'm still cold and burning up
Like a raisin in the sun, and I'm numb from smoking blunts
I don't feel it when they hit me, way my father used to beat me
I don't think I'd really feel it if a car swerved and hit me
What does God got against me?
I've been doing stupid shit like ... and selling...
I even tried to rob a bitch that got raided by police
I'm just glad it wasn't me
And that keep me up at night, but I'm used to losing sleep
'Cause I live inside a house that's full of water, neck deep
So I'm always f*cking fighting to keep my head above the water
If I could walk on top of oceans
I'd change the whole world and make it better for my mother
And get a message from my sister, and that's just f*cking fiction
She out there flirtin' with addiction, she ain't got no time to call me
Me, you, and our father, all hopeless alcoholics
If you get a chance to call me
Just remember that I love you, and I'll always be your brother
[Hook]
And there were times that I didn't want to live
But thank God I'm alive
And to them times that I didn't want to live
Thank God I'm alive
For all the times that I didn't want to live
Thank God I'm alive
And to the times that I didn't want to live
Thank God I'm alive
[Verse 2]
I remember being young, I'd ask a lot of questions
Like, "Why's there so much hatred?" and "Why they call me crazy?"
Mama said I fell from heaven, smacked my head on the pavement
"And that's why they call me crazy, but that's why I love you baby"
And the day you stop fighting, that's the day you turn crazy
I could never pay you back but I'ma start with a Mercedes
When I blow up I'mma get you everything you wanted now
It'll never be the same, riding through H-town
Got a chevy full of gas, roll the windows down
Hope I find some peace of mind 'fore the sun goes down
[Hook]
And there were times that I didn't want to live
But thank God I'm alive
And to them times that I didn't want to live
Thank God I'm alive
For all the times that I didn't want to live
Thank God I'm alive
And to the times that I didn't want to live
Thank God I'm alive