Dad I know you were sad when you died
And I was young it's the way I kept you in my mind
The mess I was left
And a mother cried
And when she stood up she was nobody's mother
I'd be fine
But I missed you then and I miss you now
Like you'd missed things I might say
You seemed lost in clouds
But I'm older now
I can see through lifting haze
That you were away even when you were here
Sometimes a phrase or a manner that's you
Comes through me and goes in a flash
It's a frame it's a blink like life
Oh and how much now should we pay for the past
'Cause you could age
With grace if I freed you in my mind
But I love you then
And I love you now
All the things I wish I'd asked
When I'm lost in clouds
I remember how
I was robbed and I was blessed
And you were away even when you were here
'Cause it's not about you, not you
Anymore
It's about what I do with it all
And I
I'll never let you let me down
This morning I wake to be older than you were
Fresh like snow for miles
Every footstep will be mine
You'd have lost that way
You'd have gone so straight
You'd have made my wedding day
You'd have saved my youth
From that bullet of truth
You'd have kept those wolves at bey
But you were away
Even when you were here.