if this is all part of some plan
if this is all part of some game
if this is some self affirming notion
if this is all exactly what i think it is
our phobias are the only conversation
i dont want to say anything right now
smoke gets in your eyes
and loose hairs fall into a glass of water without ice
it's giving you a stomachache
which comes as no surprise when you say that your head is
throbbing
or how tired that you are
now loneliness has turned into a desperate thing
i dont want to think about that now