surrender to the air
let the sky bare this soul
free and bright like a lodestar
leading to the sun
warming from both sides
nothing like these killing arms
that suffocate true desire.
(i can't watch myself live to see the day where I break)
that day is flowing towards me.
like waves gaining pace
like tides that never change
more swiftly.
more evenly.
more quietly.
the endless cycle of give and take
the careful words we have the guts to say
the unfulfillment that has numbed my insides and sealed
my fate.
i have to give in to the ground below my feet
as we edge closer to those final steps
I can hear the earth begging:
“the rats, they want you
the soil's calling”