[Intro]
(raccoonz, 緒にいるよ)
Uh
[Verse]
Feel like I been up for too long
Demons tryna tell me "Do wrong"
Looking dirty like a cube bong
Boss fight, I'm feeling too strong
People got my brain feeling lesser
Should've killed myself up in the desert
Every day, surrounded by the pressure
I will not submit to you, never
My therapist made me feel worse
Medications make my brain hurt
Now, I'm not on even playing turf
Wanna put myself under the dirt
I was good until I f*ckin' relapsed
Yeah, I changed, but they would never see that
I never asked to f*cking be sad
'Cause of anxiety, I gotta react
Uh, all the stress been f*cking me up
I'on like weed, f*ck a re-up
I don't like me, I f*cking need love
f*ck hygiene, I need to clean up
I don't even wanna get out of bed
I wanna put a bullet in my head
Somedays I think I'm better off dead
And f*ck all of these meds
I can't even say what's in my brain
Waking up and every day the same
Ultimately, who is there to blame?
Me, 'cause I will never ever change