[Chorus: Kendall Johns]
On and on
My mind's a clock that just never stops
Been down for six weeks
Count the hours of sleep I never got
Ask me one time I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Ask me two times I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Third time you know's a f*ckin' lie
Hurt myself just to come alive
[Verse 1: Kendall Johns]
Everyday I awake, take a drink, numb the pain
Drop a note, make it rain, but you know shit be fake
Buy a gun, hold it tight, keep it on my bedside
Pull the trigger, say goodnight, yo, what the f*ck is this?
I ain't sick motherf*cker, but I can't get outta bed
You ever feel that barrel get close too your head?
Forget what I said, forget what I meant
Forget bein' alive, I'd rather be dead, what?
[Verse 2: Kendall Johns]
(Always down, always down)
Always down and can't seem to look up
I'm all I have to blame
(I'm all I have to blame)
Everyday I feel something different
But it all just stays the same
I'll say I'm doing fine
But I'll never be okay
What, what?
(On and on, my mind's...)
[Chorus: Kendall Johns]
On and on
My mind's a clock that just never stops
Been down for six weeks
Count the hours of sleep I never got
Ask me one time I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Ask me two times I'll say ("I'm doing fine")
Third time you know's a f*ckin' lie
Hurt myself just to come alive
[Verse 3: DaBoiJ]
Man, I been down like underground
No Tony Hawk sittin' in the park while it's dark, nigga f*cked up
f*ck fame, money, and bitches, I'm f*cked up
The definition of failure, nigga, tough luck
Jaded and all I want is my enemies apart
Blank face, blunt mouthed wit' a empty heart
Feel like I'm stuck in the sea and all I see is the sharks
Can't run away from the pain when all you see is the dark
Stuck in the game, mind gone insane
From the thangs that I got but it's anger and pain
All that I'll gain when I get to the top
Feelin' the highs to get from the lows
I'll never escape that's just how it goes
Takin' a dose to warm when you froze
Numb from the pain, I feel like a ghost
Focus so I'll never fold, but paranoia's got a hold
Haters keep me on my toes, this f*ckin' game is gettin' old
Depression's tryna burn me, gotta get up off the stove
Ain't tryna be another f*ckin' dead failure story told
[Verse 4: Kendall Johns]
(Always down, always down)
Always down and can't seem to look up
I'm all I have to blame
(I'm all I have to blame)
Everyday I feel something different
But it all just stays the same, yeah