Alive To Experience My Own Death Lyrics

How many days
Have to go by
Before I can actually feel alive?
How much longer can I live this lie
Before I tie the knot
And say goodbye?

Life has come at me
With so many twists and turns
And it has made me far too sick
I think I need to pull over
I've crashed two too many times
And in turn I've been marked with a sign that says
"Proceed with Caution"
'Cause I'm a danger to you
And your health is slowly declining
Because I let you down

[Chorus]
Down they fall
Down they go
Everyone I need in my life will runaway
Until there is nothing left

I've been left with nothing in my heart
'Cause I believe there's nothing left to feel
The funniest thing about it Is I still have plenty of time left to live
I'm gonna be so numb
At least I hope, 'cause if I'm not
I'm gonna have to force myself to be
I'm gonna have to learn to be
Somewhat of a nihilist
I don't need to believe in anything except myself
And that's the one thing I can't seem to get a hold of
[Chorus]
Down they fall
Down they go
Everyone I need in my life will runaway
Down they fall
Down they go
Everyone I need in my life will runaway
Until there is nothing left

I have yet to find a new method
But I'm still trying every day
Nothing seems to change
And nothing feels right
They say life's worth living
But I can't pay for my mistakes anymore

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