There has to be a reason I stopped feeling anything
Embarrassing myself but I'm still counting ceiling
Tiles to pass the days, nothing can stay
I drank the whole bottle, I forgot your birthday
And that's alright
I watched you undress, but holding hands is meaningless
I waited all winter but you moved in together
I can't wait patiently
I've drawn our names in concrete
You promise me one day
I'll cross my fingers tightly
You never know how f*cked up you are until you're all alone
Looking at yourself in the bathroom mirror
Cup my hands around the light, a house made of wax
Count back from 10 and try to relax
But I'll be alright
So close your eyes and take a deep breath
It's a jump from a ledge not a push off a cliff
We hit traffic on the turnpike
And we took turns driving all night
You drove head first into my bed
But I didn't crash until you left
Clenching my fists and grinding my jawbone
When I'm with you I'm learning to be alone