[Verse 1: JayteKz]
Yo, I've been searching for myself
I just hope I can find him soon
And I don't ask for help, every time I do they just assume
But they don't see the hell, see the bloody trail I'm walking through
No, they all think I am well, but they only see the outside view
I tried to let them in, but it's like they got their eyes closed
Don't want to try again
I feel like my time is coming close
I'm dying deep within
Maybe this is the end of the road?
My life is filled with sins, I don't know if God will take my soul
A broken soul I am, cursed upon this holy land
No one here to hold my hand and death seems like the only plan
You don't f*cking understand
What I have is a disease, slowly taking over day by day until I am deceased
Nothings ever what it seems, many times I've been deceived
The ones you love the most can warm your soul and make your spirit bleed
I wanna leave, I wanna die and leave this all behind
Want you to see the pain I hide that's left me so deprived
[Chorus] (x2)
Everyday I wake up and I question if I'll make it through
Every night I stay up only wishing that my dream came true
I am so afraid of who I am and who I change into
When my mind is made up, that will be the day I break the news
I won't be around no more, I'll just become a memory
Promise you, you don't got to know
My final breath will set me free
Everybody has been warned and it might have been eventually
I'll be gone tomorrow morning, that will be the end of me
[Outro]
"I just want you all to know, that I'm thankful for everything. I'm thankful for the life I have been given and I'm thankful for everybody that's in it, but this has nothing to do with you and has everything to do with me
And If one day I am no longer here, I just want you to all know that I love you, and you have made my life worth while
You gave me a sense of purpose
A reason to try and hold on
I love you
Even after my dying days"