Bad Habits Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I don't know how deep to go
But I'ma let it all out so come peep the show
Got my first Xanny of my mate, I ain't gonna say his name
It was fun at the start, I used to treat it like a game
This around the time when The Nebulizer dropped
I was on all types of shit, but there's one I couldn't stop
And it played with my brain, but I focused on the music
I focused so much, didn't realize I abused it
Never had a plan to stop, not in that prediction
Going through fame, couldn't see I had addictions
One turned to two, turned to three, turned to four
Then I need about six a day, a little bit more
Mixin' it with lean, gotta stop people seein'
What damages can be by lookin' at me, shit
What to do 'cause I feel like a fool
And I hate any rapper makin' Xannies look cool
Shit was gettin' bad, I was filled up with hateful
Thoughts in my mind, I would argue with April
Agreed I would stop, shit I'll give it a go
By the first f*ckin' night, felt like slittin' my throat
Second night, my body shaking the ambulance appear
And I'm thinkin' in my mind, what the f*ck they doing here?
Suddenly I'm caught up and there's no time to muck 'round
Lucky I got here, 'cause my body 'bout to shut down

[Verse 2]
Back to square one, nah man, you can't quit
You gotta wean yourself off, that's some hard shit
What the f*ck man, my brain is a mess
I can't remember that much, feel the pain in my legs
I wish it was that easy, I could give up and go
And people still got the hide to tell me pick up my phone
Maybe that's my fault, I didn't speak on it much
I didn't see it as a problem, I would keep it from cunts
Rates could always tell, when I couldn't pronounce
Certain words, brain dead, yeah should I be proud?
Anxiety was killin' me, the doctors couldn't deal with me
Put me on a program cut me down off the pills and weed
All scared, 'cause I feel on my own
I told 'em "let me chill", now they think I'm dissin' 'em bro
Waking up tired, I gotta take more pills
And I don't even wanna take 'em, is this f*ckin' for real?
Losin' touch with myself, it's like reality's false
It's like I'm walkin' around without havin' a pulse
It's a feelin' of death, or like nothin' is left
Lose air, I'm holdin' my chest, just put a hole in my head
You see the older I get, it's gettin' scary as f*ck I'm like an eighteen in the head, I weren't aware of those drugs
The shit that they cause, I talk to mirrors on walls
I don't need this shit ever, but to pills I will fall

[Verse 3]
I opened up on No Rest, told cunts everything
That I done ice, didn't leave out anything
I quit that shit, yeah, I left it flat dead
That was five years ago, they still think I'm a crackhead
If that's what we're goin' off, f*ck me dead
In five years, I'll be clean, they'll be calling me a Xanny head
Funny how the world works for a paycheck
Once the fame hit, I became a train wreck
I wasn't shit anyway, so why does it count?
Why so many people love me? I can't figure it out
But I'm tellin' you now, don't you follow my path
Look you couldn't if you tried, 'cause I'm goin' in hard
f*ck it, poppin' a pill, just to go out today
How'd I end up like this? I don't know, it's a way
Well I'm blamin' the fame, yeah, I said it before
But it's enough to make me high, feel like endin' it all, but I

[Verse 4]
Brush it off, got the fans on my side too
And my girl and my brothers and the whole crew
Spillin' the truth, it's like all I can do
That's why I don't have time for rappers that are saying they true
When they lie to their fans, apologise in the end
I never lied to mine and this is why I'm the man
I tell you what I'm goin' through, I don't care what they think
That's why I'm triple popping pills, leaning over the sink
I'm almost f*ckin' crying as I'm writin' this shit
'Cause of all my close ones, and the lives I affect
I came from the bottom, I made it my problem
Created the option, now fame has adopted
My brain gotta stop it, insane I am not this
Strange we got Scott sick, I'ma watch a clock tick
Just f*ck off, I said it just f*ck off
If I won't have my tablets I'll find a bridge to jump off
f*cking idiots, thinking that the shit is cool
Till they dyin' in the vomit of there own drool
What I meant to say? Don't do what I done
I've cut down on the program, yeah I've won
Repped it from the street, turned into a star then
Caught a f*cking habit on the Xanax but the bars went
Crazy and I'm just dealin' with fame
I just want my fans to know that I'll still be the same
I'm good

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