On the porch, she will sit
light another cigarette
and take a sip of anything that makes it right
she's outside, trying to hide
from the fight just inside
where her mom and her dad destroy each other
and on the phone, she will call
every boy, yeah, one and all
and they will touch her in all
of the right places
in her room, she will slide
down the bed and try to fly
and she will fall, once again,
for the feeling
and as he grabs her brown hair
she is faking
that the feeling he gives her is real
as the floor underneath the bed is breaking
she will finish what she starts with, "I love you"
so from her head to her toes
nervous hands and runny nose
all of this just for one night of feeling
and in her ears she will hear
all the things that hide her fears
of dying young and making plans for the future
and all the marks on her arms
symbolize a fractured heart
and all the boys that were smart left her alone
so from the roof, she will fly
fifteen feet down the side
of the house where she once was happy
yes it's true, she's aware
that she is breaking
and it's true, she can't do anything
well in her blue underwear
she is thinking how in Jesus' precious name
she got here
well it's sad, but it's true
she is ending
but for now, she will pray for some wings
on a black Cadillac she is landing hard
yet her parents' biggest worry is the car