[Verse 1]
Run my lane, I ain't got time for games
The more things that change around me
The more things that stay the same
Oh you think you know sum bout me
'cause you google up my name
I could take all of these pills
But I know it won't stop the pain yeah, aye
Got this debt that drag me down and stress me out uh uh
I've been workin' extra tryin' to get out uh uh
I done gave my heart to women who ain't love me back
This year I don't think that I'm gon' make no time for that
Whoa, holdin' on by threads
I don't know how much longer I can go
I've been been locked up by myself at night
Recordin' all these flows
Half my friends already married
I ain't got that much to show
For all the seeds that I done planted
Waiting for that mug to grow
Never been the type to let
Someone's opinion tell me no
You can keep your standards
I do not respect your status quo
I done came to far to let
My music fit into your mold
If you scared to light the fuse
Then tell me how you bout to blow?
[Chorus]
I guess now that I'll be on my own
Work so hard that I don't even check my phone
Lately I've been feelin' out my zone
I don't really wanna talk about it
Please leave me alone, yeah
I just want the real thing
Why is it so hard for me to feel things?
I just want the real thing
Why is it so hard for me to feel things?
[Verse 2]
Play for keeps, I've barely slept in weeks
I done got so much that I want
Why I still feel incomplete?
I've been carrying this baggage
Wait til I get off my leash
If you try to bring me down
Then you already underneath yeah, aye
There's a fine line between all this pride I'm
Tryin' to keep in line when I decide that its my time
So I keep in mind my purpose is divine why
Do we fight on how to define it?
I'm hesitant to go
To some places I've been before
Cause deep down I just know
That I can't feel no love no more
I can feel it in my soul
That my heart is just hardening
And no one would ever know
My perspective is darkening oh no no no
Isolation mixed with self deprecation
Has given Beelzebub a cause to give me standing ovations
I've made this my occupation but at what cost to my head?
I've gone numb from the pain
I'd rather feel it instead I'm sayin'
[Chorus]
I guess now that I'll be on my own
Work so hard that I don't even check my phone
Lately I've been feelin' out my zone
I don't really wanna talk about it
Please leave me alone, yeah
I just want the real thing
Why is it so hard for me to feel things?
I just want the real thing
Why is it so hard for me to feel things?