Here's to all the people who have helped me through this year
I never could have thanked you all for that
You put up with my flaws and all my pessimistic thoughts
And this is my attempt to say thank you
I don't think I'm quite as sad as I was before
I've only got myself to blame for that
I couldn't see where I was or what I was working towards
But I've come to accept that side of life
I walked alone
For as far as I could let myself go
Now I fall dethroned
I crack a smile, but the joy is not my own
Here's to all the people that I always just ignored
I'm sorry that I couldn't say hello
Though you came in constant crowds, as I worried about myself
I couldn't see that you were all alone
I think about Jesus and the things they say He did
I think I'd like to live some more like that
But I'm consumed with growing doubt, a need for hope, and getting out
My love could never go as deep as that
I walked alone
For as far as I could let myself go
Now I fall dethroned
I crack a smile, but the joy is not my own
I'm getting better slowly
But I am still losing my mind
And I can't get rid of the old me
In spite of everything I've tired
But I never bothered you
I never asked for you
Here's to everybody that is worried about me
I'm doing fine, as far as I can tell
I still want to die before I turn 25
But I guess we'll have to see if time prevails
'Cause thirty years sounds bold
But God, it seems so old
I guess we'll have to see where my road goes