Desolate Lyrics

[Verse]
I'm not okay, it's not just a day
Every day I wake up I don't have shit to say
I just feel f*cking numb
Like my life had begun
I've been trying for years ever since I was done
Now I feel like shit
Is it gonna be like this for the rest of my life?
I wanna end this shit
It's not fun, uh
I just wanna get out
I cannot escape, it's in my head
I cannot let out
All these f*cking feelings that been trapped inside my mental
Never gentle with the way that they just fall at me
I'm feeling sentimental
[?] my old self
And the things I used to do
I never had a thing to prove
And if I did, it wasn't true
But now I'm here And my ego gets a hold of me
I don't wanna work, I wanna live but I've been hopeless, see
Everything you're thinking is achievable
Even though the sun is down, my goals are never seasonal
I work hard, play hard, and never flexing any money
You look stupid and deluded, even if you think you're funny
What a shame
What a shame you had to waste the happiness you gained
Just to put yourself in pain
f*cking sickening
And I see it all the time
But I've been [?] blocking out
So I can make myself [?]
You f*cking fools
You thought you had me for a second
Even though it's f*cked up, I see my mental as a blessing

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