[Verse 1 - Novatore]
Been looking rocky for the last few weeks
Too many minutes spent together man I think I need some peace
She got me acting wild, violent, and sloppy
Wish that somebody could stop me from this romance with a beast
My hate of self increased I feel it every week
Because i wish that I could be free but I just can't compete
With how she makes feel when i don't feel real
Concealing my emotions with a taste when I don't feel well
I've got to fight it, I know I can
I've gotta think about the days before day that we began
And try to understand that this only mental
Sentimental thoughts are harmful like utensils to your temple
It took a couple of days but finally found the strength to say
That is it so pack up your shit and look the other way
I take it day to day and thats just how it be
And it get lonely often times but yo i think I'm finally free
[Chorus - Novatore]
I take a drink so I can be myself
20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health
Everything I do is full throttle
Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the f*cking bottle
I take a drink so I can be myself
20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health
Everything I do is full throttle
Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the f*cking bottle
[Verse 2 - Novatore]
She thinks I need her better believe I'm getting anxious
Cuz this crowd is overwhelming but I got no place to go
She gazes at me, sadly, know shell make me happy
But this temporary love will melt away like Florida snow
I let her know that it was over many months ago
But every now again I think she senses when Im weak
Hard to speak and isolated looking empty
Dreamt she left me to my own but that was only in my sleep
I'm in so deep that I can hardly see the surface
When I suffer by my lonesome yo I wonder whats the f*ckin purpose?
I don't deserve this sick co-dependent sentence
Sick of serving it deserving something better or maybe not
But do I got a choice? I'm haunted by the voice
I ain't the only she boy she f*cks, she won't be happy til I drop
Its gotta stop and yo I know this for this for a fact
But I cave for sin and drink her in she whispers welcome back
[Chorus - Novatore]
I take a drink so I can be myself
20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health
Everything I do is full throttle
Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the f*cking bottle
I take a drink so I can be myself
20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health
Everything I do is full throttle
Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the f*cking bottle
[Verse 3 - Nightwalker]
Almost nothing to say I haven't said before
I don't even feel like getting out my bed no more
My attendance is very poor, and conversations
Cuz who the f*ck am I pretending for?
No one listens they just wait to speak
And I work too many days a week
How can I love you if you don't hate police
Not even happy when I'm rapping or i'm making beats
People that I loved became strangers
No one cares about you or repays favors
I expect the worse from everyone
Watch beauty turn to darkness like a setting sun
You can protest violence or you can get a gun
Make excuses, put it off, or just get it done
I don't really f*ck with anyone
You turn into a piece of shit the second that you friends with one
[Chorus - Novatore]
I take a drink so I can be myself
20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health
Everything I do is full throttle
Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the f*cking bottle
I take a drink so I can be myself
20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health
Everything I do is full throttle
Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the f*cking bottle