[Verse 1: Zach Quinn]
Garbed in misery
A mirror of my world
Vomit still speckles my bib
Lowly imps of pity swarm
Like buzzards in the sun
To lull me to sleep in my crib
I dream of you
And then I dream of something else
I lust to be lustful once more
Recounting failures
I have failed once again
The kismet I cannot ignore
[Pre-Chorus: Zach Quinn]
Inside of this crater I have combed for days
For any small sliver
Moments looped, replayed
[Chorus: Zach Quinn]
I wanted to save you
I haven't the strength to save us both
I long to be near you
Your ship is now miles out from my coast
I still get your messages
No flickers of light will bring you back
What was almost blinding fades slowly to black
[Verse 2: Zach Quinn]
Alone, confused, with a body I abused
Silenced by a monster in my place
Defeat, passenger seat
Driver steals my voice and wears my face
[Chorus: Zach Quinn]
I wanted to save you
I haven't the strength to save us both
I long to be near you
Your ship is now miles out from my coast
I still get your messages
They're useless but mean the world to me
Recalling my mother
Smiling down at the proud little boy I used to be
[Outro: Zach Quinn]
This river runs higher
To all I've ever desired
I washed up on purpose
Drowning on the surface
In envy of what he became
A dying green star