No Big Bang Lyrics

I once had a conversation with someone
He talked to me of those twilight hours
Those times when your mind is on fire
Those times when you can't sleep because the creative
And analytical possibilities before you are endless
He said those are the times he wants to write
I understood him but I was also flabbergasted
I couldn't comprehend his unabashed enthusiasm
It was as if he didn't know the other side of that
The other side I find to be so intrinsically attached
To those moments when your mind becomes a rocket

No words
No big bang
No big bang
No big bang
No
Big
Bang

I get the exhilaration but when you look down and
See the sheer stupidity of the roller coaster just
Staring you in the face as blank and inescapable as the slab of concrete below
Just waiting to catch you, to crush you, your falling body, your skull
All of the sudden all of the science and evolution and progress
I mean sure, it looks good from a distance but when
You're really inside of it you realize it's f*cking terrifying The inexorable pull of "progress," when your mind keeps
Running along the same narrow tract of logic for what feels
Like forever and the developments are horrible and gruesome
And haunting and you mind won't stop and they're there
And you can't unseen them
How could one not be scared of that?

No crash
No big bang
No big bang
No big bang
No
Big
Bang

Oh, I know those times
Those times when your mind is a rocket propelling you
Through space so fast but it can flip all at once
Suddenly I realize the rocket is just a prison
A small contained space with no real food
No companionship, no time passing, no gravity
Just the weight of my own insignificance, my foolishness
And my hubris thrust into the glaring light that is the sun
But much much closer than it was before, and all I want is to die
Not so much die as be undone, to go back and undo it all
Make all of me as if it never happened in the first place

No birth
No big bang
No big bang
No big bang
No
Big
Bang

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