I can't get my nails in
I still slip despite help
And memories burn but still unburst
Clean the kitchen, let's go again
And darling, shaped like frantic limbs
Breakdown, I'm noticing
That I get the words wrong
And to my own songs
If I can't figure what I wrote
What hope's that I arise
To everywhere I used to dream of
Every time I closed my eyes
My whole life flies past
And it's such a blur
Only bad memories last
The nice one's fade so fast
And sing carols all year
And every weekend, hide Easter eggs
And sit and shake 'till dawn
When other people take the fear away
And f*ck everyday 'cause love is good
And there's no one like my baby
Still trapped in a glass
And I swim to the top
Maybe this drink's my last
Or maybe I'll keep losing
I seem to do it well
Like mama taught me years ago
I said it in that other song
That's fading like the magic
I believed when I was young
When I believed in God and luck and faith
And parents always give you love
The way I think you tell me all the time
And hey, it's flattering
Well, I hate the way I think
It's always bruising me and battering
But sure, I'm glad it entertains
It means I'm never lonely
And between the two
I'd rather be suicidal than
Boring
Well I can't take care
And I'm just joking
Just shut the window
You're letting smoke in