I tried to throw it away,
I tried to burn it like a photograph.
But when I close my eyes,
I see it in my mind
Like it's happening.
I got so good at the game,
No one could tell that I was faking sane.
I guess I still survived,
But this grudge was mine
I couldn't bear to watch it shine.
Did it clear conscience?
Did it clear your mind?
If you don't feel what you cheated, lied and steal
Is that dishonesty?
(For every positive, there is a negative)
I used up my honesty
I'll tell you honestly
I could only give you so much
And from what you said to me
Now you're dead to me,
You're dead to me
I'm sleeping miles away,
I'm hiding out in this shrine I made.
And if it keeps me safe
Well I'd fall from grace
Then I'll take this space
My skinny fingers are bare
I'm taking everything off my back
And if our skins the sin I'm desiring
This is where we'll both begin
Did it clear conscience?
Did it clear your mind?
If you still feel what you cheated, lied and steal
Is that integrity?
I used up my honesty
I'll tell you honestly
I could only give you so much
And from what you said to me
Now you're dead to me
'Cause you've used me as your crutch.
Is everywhere that I've seen
Everywhere that I've been?
I can't help it, it's become a part of me
I used up my honesty
Now you're dead to me
You're dead to me
You lost your dignity
And my conformity
Made me throw this fight
One moment of losing yourself
Put me through hell
And cost me my whole life
Second chances are weapons
A loaded gun underneath the bed
Second chances are weapons
It's turned on you in the end
I used up my honesty
I'll tell you honestly
I could only give you so much
And from what you said to me
Now you're dead to me
'Cause you've used me as your crutch.
It's spinning me like the wind
Every decision I'm in
Choose my direction like I'm drowning in your sin
I used up my honesty
Now you're dead to me
You're dead to me
(This was my second chance,
This was my second chance)
This was my second chance
To make it right again
This was my second chance
To take a stand
This was my second chance
To never look back
This was my second chance
To live again