They’re fading fast, all of the memories.
Tell me what the f*ck is wrong with me.
I can’t remember because it hurts too much to remember.
I shut myself off.
I shut it out.
I disappeared.
I couldn’t get out of this self-destruction.
Hating myself and anyone that came near me.
I can’t remember.
I don’t want to face where I’ve been.
Now I’m facing the cost ‘cause I was dead to everything.
Afraid of the image staring back at me.
By the horror on your face I knew I’d hate what I’d f*cking see.
Blinded by the pain, I let the years slip through my hands.
Just bury me in the sound.
Sink or swim, I’ll just f*cking drown.
And I can’t remember.
I don’t want to face where I’ve been.
Now I’m facing the cost ‘cause I was dead to everything.
I should have known t hat one day I’d have to face myself.
I’d have to wake up from this.
Face the damage I caused and the things that I missed.
Just turn it up.
Let the sound bury my fears.
Let it carry us on to places far from here.