[Intro:]
Some shit I keep to myself
There's some shit that's just ours
Some shit that's sacred
But I had to write this letter to you
I wish I could do better for you
Just tryin my best, I'm tryin my motherf*ckin best
[Slaine:]
18 years, some days are cloudy as shit
Most of 'em are sunny for me to think now we should split
It's f*ckin horrifyin years, saw some cowardly shit
We spent years together for you to hour hour me it's
Kust a slap in the face, like we're trapped in a place
We both took an oath, how could you be reactin this way?
I admit, I've been doin too much Captain and yay
We grew up together, best friends from back in the day
It wasn't my fault that destiny had happened this way
I desperately, had a passion to be rappin this way
I was testin roads from the rock bottom to a top problem
Of this villain-filled killing field
If I'm not violent and they kill I'm killed
Every day I'm tested if my will is real
I come home and fill our drawers up with hundred dollar bills
I take care of our son
Love him with the fullest heart, and now we're gettin pulled apart
I don't wanna see this happen, I don't really
It hurts me so much to touch you when you don't feel me
I refuse to believe that we'll ever die
We won't really, we both prayin my addiction don't kill me
I love you so much I'll die for, lie for you
Cry for you, pull every last one of the stars out the sky for you
How can you doubt what I would do?
Why would you? How could you ever think those lies are true?
I love you
[Hook: x2]
I still look to the sky and I pray you and I
Stay together 'til the day that we die
When you tell me we will fall back to Earth
I will say we can fly - so how crazy am I?
[Slaine:]
Yeah I been crazy baby, now I've never been as hated
Maybe I degenerated, maybe I've just been afraid of
My sinnin and my ways of renegade-ish pride
And ever since we had Terrance I've been afraid to die
I wish my childhood was all lemonade and pie
But everything the world told me always been a straight up lie
I feel like Jesus Christ, just another made up guy
And I'm startin to feel like eating a f*ckin grenade and I
Hate my life, I hate my face
I can't escape this place, I have turned to evil
I'm consumed by this paper chase
If only we could reconnect with loneliness
And beat this hectic freakin wreck that we grew up in
I bet you that we could get, everything back I just want my family
It's gonna take the man in me to conquer this insanity
f*ck it, I'm bitin 2Pac yeah, for my rhymes
And I stuffed 'em in a shoebox there, you were there
[Scratching from Pharcyde's "Passin' Me By":]
"I just play love by ear and hope she gets the picture"
"I'm shootin for her heart, got my finger on the trigger"
[Hook]