can you watch your fear grow?
an inextinguishable belief upon past life.
or will you become so attached to the one perceive
that will cause you to grow
- but will not love you back.
so you bury yourself.
so obsessed, so depressed with success,
and never have the time you’ll need to take whats left.
to compare ourselves - is there no shame?
no shame in infliction of mass pain and guilt.
guilt is the sign to justificate and condemnate.
the violence anger and fear:
is this the ideal or just the actual?
addicted to fear of growing old.
addicted to the present moment as my passions explode.
addicted to another’s mind-body-control.
you’ve got a mind? i’ve got a mind of my own
so i’ll explore all the reasons why this world-
it moves-it only moves in reverse-
surroundings that manipulate our lives.
so i’ll keep one eye on the self,
and the other on what drives.
this is my life. i must expose myself to myself.