[Intro: Adam Calhoun]
And I looked
And behold, a pale white horse
And his name said upon him is death
And Hell followed with him
[Verse 1: Adam Calhoun]
You ever get depression, face goes blank
No expression, dealing with some demons, they aggressive
Looking at the gun on the dresser
Got a question
Will these thoughts stop if I press it?
I don't really wanna off myself
But I often sit and think
Gotta shed a tear like a drop from a faucet sink
Need to talk to a shrink, walk with a priest
Wanna fight everybody when I walk down the street
Want a problem?
f*ck you your honor, never had a father
Made me crazy like a motherf*cker
Came in swinging Muhammed Ali
Frazier born in 1980, started rappin' way before I ever heard of Shady
I ain't even know white dudes rap
Thought you had to be black for that
Had to feel he started jackin' with the hat to match
I was rappin' way before I heard of Aftermath
[Pre-Chorus: Adam Calhoun]
I've been feelin' crazy but
I've been actin' like I got it all together
I've been down lately but
Maybe someday I'll get my act together
Made it through the bad weather
It was okay, but I had better
I don't like to look in mirrors
[Chorus: Adam Calhoun]
Cause I don't like lookin' at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I see you lookin' at my face!
[Verse 2: Mesus]
Why so aggressive?
Say it with my chest, yeah so they get the message
I don't mean to text back if you just look away
'Fore I make your head spin like an exorcist
Bah, wakin' up from nightmares
Heart thumpin', God are you hearin' my prayers?
Cause I hear the thunder and I don't really like mirrors
Someone stares back at me lookin' like my fears
The only one that I'm scared of us G-O-D
And the old me, drunk or OE
And I don't know if you aware, but I've been slowly
Numbing my pains like a OD on codeine
Battlin' my demons like it's 106 and Park
Medication' sins with some gin, never healed my scar
Trynna end part-part of my heart with my art
But the dark feels like darts and I don't know where I should start
Cause
[Pre-Chorus: Adam Calhoun]
I've been feelin' crazy but
I've been actin' like I got it all together
I've been down lately but
Maybe someday I'll get my act together
Made it through the bad weather
It was okay, but I had better
I don't like to look in mirrors
[Chorus: Adam Calhoun]
Cause I don't like lookin' at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I see you lookin' at my face!
[Verse 3: Tom MacDonald]
I'm mentally unstable, unable to get a grip
Bet my guardian angel thinks I'm a piece of shit
Got a mountain of problems and I've been standin' on a cliff
Figured maybe I should jump and tell everybody I tripped
Can't admit it, but I'm sick of prescription pills that I get
Gettin' hard to swallow and I don't feel like I'm fixed
I'm slippin' further and further into the grip of a pill
I've been digging since I was nothin' but a six-year-old kid
Now I'm grown and I'm seein' ghosts
Of the man I used to be before I fell into this hole
Full of bones, I've been gettin' stoned
And it helped me cope with everything beautifully
But I wish I would've known bout the lows
I moved to the middle of nowhere
If I was you, wouldn't go there
Cause I just wanna be by myself!
Nothin' but some mountains and cold air
I got my dogs and I don't care
And I did everything by myself!
I just wanna be in nature
Keep erasin' my entire legacy
Of everything and being famous
I'm not a celebrity, I'm a piece of paper
That I scribble my thoughts on when they feel dangerous
f*ck you
I can see it clear
You still want Hollywood now I wanna disappear
Everywhere I go I see people lookin' at me weird
Every time I see a mirror
I can't look at my face!
[Pre-Chorus: Adam Calhoun]
I've been feelin' crazy but
I've been actin' like I got it all together
I've been down lately but
Maybe someday I'll get my act together
Made it through the bad weather
It was okay, but I had better
I don't like to look at mirrors
[Chorus: Adam Calhoun]
Cause I don't like lookin' at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I don't look at my face
I see you lookin' at my face!