I come from the bottom
I ain't ever had the upper hand
I will put it all on the line
I have no other plans
I am at war with myself
Do you really understand?
Would you love me if you really knew just how f*cked up I am?
Some days I wonder if I disappear would anybody care
Some days I wish that somebody was here but there's nobody there
Ask me where I'd rather be than here, I'll say anywhere
I just roll another stick of gas and put it in the air
Come on let's have a conversation, I'll show you how pain feels
I can take you to a place where everyone's on pain pills
And the kind of pain we feel is something pills can't heal
You won't feel me if you ain't never struggled to pay bills
Lord strike me dead if I'm lying
Been in the belly of the beast
Went head to head with the lion
Ever heard a baby cryin' 'cause it's hungry and it's tired?
Ever seen a single mother that struggles to buy diapers?
I have
Sit alone in a dark room
Sayin' prayers to the lord
I keep seein' the signals
But don't know what they're for
In my mind I'm a prisoner
Sittin' on death row
I keep hearin' the whispers
Sayin' don't let go
If I said I'm afraid
Would you love me
Would you love me
If I showed you my pain
Would you love me
Would you love me
The same
Does a star's light die if there's no one looking
A recipe for disaster, my demons are cooking
Drink of regret, I've been left by some car keys
Celebrate my pay with my name on the markings
Sit alone in a dark room
Sayin' prayers to the lord
I keep seein' the signals
But don't know what they're for
In my mind I'm a prisoner
Sittin' on death row
I keep hearin' the whispers
Sayin' don't let go
If I said I'm afraid
Would you love me
Would you love me
If I showed you my pain
Would you love me
Would you love me
Sit alone in a dark room (Sit alone in a dark room)
Sayin' prayers to the lord (Sayin' prayers to the lord)
I keep seein' the signals (I keep seein' the signals)
But don't know what they're for (But don't know what they're for)
In my mind I'm a prisoner (In my mind I'm a prisoner)
Sittin' on death row (Sittin' on death row)
I keep hearin' the whispers (I keep hearin' the whispers)
Sayin' don't let go (Sayin' don't let go)