Homesick Lyrics

[Verse]
I've been homesick, trying to find a way back
My heart ain't in the place that I stay at
Motherf*ckers try to blame me and get mad
Like I left 'em behind as if I even wanted that
Try to understand me
There's a lot of agony, hidden shit you can't see
I been wanting lots of things that I know can't be
I'm just getting lots of hate for what life hands me
That's what I'm going through now
I really miss my old house, but they're tearing it down
I miss my hometown, but I'm states away
In a house that I stay and we can't even pay
I been stuck inside my room
No friends, no job, I got nothing to do
And seeing people have fun is like salt in the wound
Feel like giving up is something I'mma have to do soon
Never thought I'd miss coming to class But this f*cking hell I'm in got me wanting it back
My doubts and second thoughts are motherf*cking starting to stack
Feel like life's a race, and I'm coming in last
But I won't let it happen
I've come too far to be giving up rapping
Hope you're strapped in, I'mma give it my all
And I ain't throwing in the towel, it's an all-out brawl
It don't matter what, whether I fly or I fall
I'm not giving up, you ain't ever taking my ball
'Cause I'm winning the game, I'm in all of the lanes
So I guess you could say that my drive is insane
I didn't pick this f*cking hand I was dealt
So holding it against me doesn't lend any help
I have a lot of doubts I'm not worried about
'Cause now I'm closer to the clouds than I am to the ground

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