[Verse 1]
I been doin' all I can to try to make it back home
But the longer that it takes, I just feel more alone
There been days I sit and thinking while I'm glued to my phone
Y'all are all together, I'll just call and wait at the tone
Now I don't wanna drag you down, I don't wanna be a burden
Like every time we talk, I just say how I been hurting
I been thinking what would happen if I never make it
For the sake of both of us I think I'll save it and I'll face it
But I'm hating how the odds keep on stacking up against me
Don't wanna play the victim, I been seeing y'all with envy
Don't know whats gotten in me. Don't understand the way I think
'Cause every time I see you all, posted with some drinks
I just feel like no one cares or forgot about me
And when I think if I was there it gets to bothering me
I should be gettin' to sleep all of these memories sting
And I don't wanna take it out and say some shit I don't mean
[Chorus]
But its the way that I see things
And its the way I process
Can't say I've got no shame
In the way that I been acting
I been stuck inside the same place
And I just wanna make some progress
(I'm hurt, lost, been trapped in thoughts)
Well maybe its part of the process
[Verse 2]
I been lookin' in the mirror and I'm making different faces
Wonder when I changed here and wishing I could change it
Wishing I could reach out to talk about my problems
But I do it too often, its annoying and its bothersome
I'll leave a message I been thinking bout a lot
(Its Drew, whats going on?) I just really need to talk
Do you feel the same way that you say that you used to?
Have I gotten annoying, am I plague to the friend group?
Are you positive you're still wanting me your life?
Dog, you all being gone has caused hell through mine
I swear I'm not trying to rely on you, that ain't fair
But I don't think you'll ever know how much I wanna be there
Well I'm here if you ever wanna talk
I'm not going anywhere, if I wanted to or not
If you feel different I just hope you let me know
Before every call I make got me waiting at the tone
[Chorus]
But its the way that I see things
And its the way I process
Can't say I've got no shame
In the way that I been acting
I been stuck inside the same place
And I just wanna make some progress
(I'm hurt, lost, been trapped in thoughts)
Well maybe its part of the process